Death and all his friends!

i could make out little jessica clinging on the her daddy's shoulder.i hadn't seen seen benji jr since morning and i started wondering if that would be the last time ever.i smiled at the thought of my son,his two kids and his wife. they made the cutest of families.
slowly my vision started becoming blurred and i wondered "is this it?".i wanted to open my eyes but i couldn't and i clenched my fists fearing the 'inevitability'.after all death was just that right?something that had to happen.
"dont be scared,dont be scared..."
why would anyone fear death?it not as if its painful ryt?or is it?but pain is a finite quantity.there's got to be a limit.why still fear death? especially with the state of the art medicines making it impossible to feel any sort of pain.there are so many ways of looking at death but ultimately we all fear it.
" we all wanna go to heaven but we are too scared to die!" the bitter irony.

A question that is linked with the fear of death is the concept of 'afterlife'. every religion i know speaks about it,and the concept does exist even among gothic and similar sub cults.But 'after life' is a subject for another day.
i've been wondering about 'death' and why it is that we fear it.i myself cant really make out why but the truth still remains, 'i am too scared to die'.
Death is certainly an inevitability.forget the alchemists,the templar knights and sorcerer's stone, death brings about 'equilibrium' and with the ever rising population death is a certainly a blessing.those who are fimiliar with the butterfly effect or the chaos theory[as explained beautifully in crichtons 'jurassic park'] deals with the concept of equilibrium.["Chaos theory is a branch of mathematics which studies the behavior of certain dynamical systems that may be highly sensitive to initial conditions. This sensitivity is popularly referred to as the butterfly effect.As a result of this sensitivity, which manifests itself as an exponential growth of error, the behavior of chaotic systems appears to be random. That is, tiny differences in the starting state of the system can lead to enormous differences in the final state of the system even over fairly small timescales. This gives the impression that the system is behaving randomly. This happens even though these systems are deterministic, meaning that their future dynamics are fully determined by their initial conditions with no random elements involved. This behavior is known as deterministic chaos, or simply chaos." courtesy wikipedia.org]
kamal hassan's dasavataram certainly speaks about it but the movie was so horrible people hardly noticed.while chaos theory refers to the randomness,butterfly effect deals with the result.so death might actually be a part of a 'greater sequence' we men can't understand.
while science sees death as a biological process, it is hard for a common man to accept it as "just tht".
to some, 'death' is a reflection of how we live our lives.i have found it very tough to understand because i have seen really good people suffering at hospitals while the villains get shot on their head and gets an easy 'death'.but maybe 'death' aint just 'end of life'. by having it easy myt mean "being free of guilt" and or the feeling of "having lived life to the fullest".
but are these possible? u myt have been the richest but u still could've loved ur wife a little more and so on. man's desire and greed is never ending.u always have something left undone.

"guys,he is going into an arrest.hit him at the count of three. one,two,...."

Is death a sign of weakness?the 'ultimate destruction'.to some it myt well be. life is never easy, and havin struggled and fought ur way thru it, death is just another obstacle on our path.a wall. only we cant cross it!it is discouraging and certainly demoralizing.and what more the anxiety of wht lies beyond is 'disturbing'.
to some people death is nothing but a conclusion to a great purpose that has been served and the beginning of a new journey.life is short and to have lived it for others is a feeling one can be proud of.but ultimately when u are in ur deathbed , can u be satisfied with what u have done with ur life? those who can are a different kind!Deific!Pious!And righteous!they c it as a transformation from their physical self to the spiritual.
But Death to man is a goodbye. a goodbye to all he was.to all he had!to all he had wanted.and to all he had loved. it isnt easy.infact it is scary.
our lives have been spent, sharing love with the loved ones, fighting it out to be the best with the competitors, and sudden loss of what he was and what he could is terribly firghtening.and hence arises the greatest fear of death.Being forgotten.regardless of how we try to cover it, the fact still remains that we are frightened by the thought of losing our identity.we are afraid of what might happen to void left by us, and we are scared of wht would happen to our dear ones whn we no are no longer present.

"Life lives,life dies,
Life laughs,life cries,
Life gives up and life tries.
But life looks different through everyones' eyes." and so it goes for death".

"gosh wher have they put me now? its so dark in here!is this the morgue?but i am not dead!have they made a mistake?heh i am alive and its so damn cold.."
and he walked out of his bed to the bright door he could see at the end of the hallway.he walked and walked, and never got tired until he finally managed the knob. he opened and "Sheila..!"

The nurse brought the baby to his dad.he had the brownest of eyes and black hair like his mom. He took jr to his mummy,kissed her on the cheeks and said" lets name him after benjamin's dad!"

"For death begins with life's first breath And life begins at touch of death”